Finally I finished

I still wanna say something........I am so excited because I pass EAP.......I cannot believe it. I spent nearly 2 years to study English........I failed once, and I blamed myself many times.......However, I passed!!!!!!!!!!!! Only My mother and bf know how hard I tried and suffered........Many people quit this program, but I insist on studying. I don't know why.......Today I know that is the result of happiness........
My dear teachers.....Murray and Scott....Keep in touch........ I will never forget you who had helped me to prove English...... Thank you very much.

Finally...........

Next week FINAL EXAMS are coming........OH MY GOD. When I finished my last term paper, I still cannot relax myself.......I cannot close my eyes......555555......crying...... Murray said listening exam is very difficult.....and he tries to make it more difficult...... I wanna cry........The day is coming....ARE U ready? I still need to prepare a perfect presentation, and decided when I am going to Ottawa for one month. The most important thing is pass........
I really feel my english level is going up day after day. I can express my words and translate what I want to say. It is a big improvement for me. Let's cheers......
Tomorrow our dear teacher is back!!!!!!!!!!!Welcome!!!!!!!!We miss him for a whole week........miss his face, voice, and walking style........hoho~~ I hope that we will have gifts....
I will keep doing my blog.......Let's finish it.!!!

A song can wake me up

Her voice is like from the sky.......

Do you know that I'm OK? Are there things you wanna say? Thinking of you night and day Hopping you'll come back and stay I remember when you told me I'll be all right Don't worry... *I try and try to understand... Is all this just a sad good bye? Thinking of you night and day... No matter if you'll come and stay I remember when you told me I'll be all right Just hold me... I don't wanna close my eyes tonight Missing you make me cry Your love will give me strengths to carry on You'll always be my heart and mind So I don't wanna close my eyes tonight I know it's just a miss match in time... Why...oh ...why Miss match in time* x2

It is a mirror which shows myself. that is hurt.

One more week to go!!!

Final exams are coming quickly. I am really scared......and anxious......Everyone is worried about their marks........So do I. I just try my best to finish my assignments......so Let's work hard!
Today, I have some news about my old friends who meet many problems now. I just suddenly understand everyone is the same. No one is better than others. When a person have something, at the same time, he or she loses something. People have to face hardness. After those difficulties, they will meet other huge problems. That is called the society and life. I am upset about the long distance,but I am also glad to be his gf. Someone always said that you would not happy when you have already had something. Even though my little wish does not come true, I am still waiting for my little happiness. I know that I will have it and I promise that if I have it, I do not except anymore. People are changing faster than I image. I do not know what I am writing about......I hate noodles...I really hate noodles.....however, i still have it everyday. To be a good man is not very hard, right? I like April, and I hate March....... I.......wanna cry......who can pass me some sugar.........

1 mins .........

"LOOK AT THE MONkEY, lOOK AT THE MONKEY!!!!"

He is a so cute monkey who is our dear Murray~(I know he will not see this page.) Today, everything goes very well. Finally, I did 1 min speech to everyone. When the monkey looked at me, I knew what his eyes contact mean. In fact, it is not a speech. I made everyone laugh. Because I said many weird things........ I said that we can watch tv to practice listening and read newspapers..... Then, the monkey's face looked like this pictures' expression and and said:"read newspapers can prove listening???" I suddenly changed topic. I said maybe we can take notes in front of Tv under the sub-title.. The monkey asked people if looking the subtitle is a good way. Everyone refused my ideas. hahahha+lolololo=everyone is happy and laughing......Many people gave me other good ideas. Now I just want to laugh.......... because........ it is so funny........ when I recall the situation, I do want to recall the monkey's face........He must think what the hell...........what is going on..........

Anyway, today is a big day and is an important day....... I have a big wish...... and I pray for a whole night ........God please bless.......please......i want to see my happiness come soon.......

One hour later, I will go to work as before. Perhaps I will meet my old friends........ still admire and be jealous...... I know that is terrible.......... but I am TERRIBLE~with a little bit stupid.
lOOK AT THE MONKEY, lOOK AT THE MONKEY~~~~

nightmare

Today, I had have a nightmare before I went to this class. I dreamed that I missed my writing mid-term exam because I woke up late. I booked a taxi and prepared to go to school. However, the taxi was not outside after ten mins..... I really counted how many marks I would lose if I miss this exam. Then, I met a group of bad people who wanted to give me a ride. However, they sold me to another place....... I really scared.......and tried to get off this car.......but I couldn't......
When I woke up quickly, I was glad that I did not miss the exam, and mid term has already passed for a long time......HOHOHOHO.......see, Helen is still alive and happy~~~
Even though the dream is not real, I still late for this class......because I woke up late. I do think that there are some relationships bewteen dreams and reality for me. The reason is sometimes my dreams happen in the reality.........that is scared........
Yesterday, I read some article about science because Murray said today might has quizs. I know many sicentists spent their whole life to discover new things and explain the earth such as Newton and Einstein....... What was their motivation? Why did they do this?..... because they desire to learn more???.......... who can answer me.........:) smile~~~~

~~Renew~~

Today is a sunny day. Even though I woke up at 3 p.m, I still enjoy the sunshine on the bed. I think that spring is coming soon. I am waiting for my spring which is my favourt season. This week I promised Murray to go to Writing centre, so I decided to go on next Tuesday. Sometimes just sometimes I am very lazy, and I feel I dislike everything......except food.......lol. I sticked our time schedule on the wall. I know that this is one more month to go. I feel very very excited because I will start a credit course!!!! I am waiting for that day for a long long long time. I have imaged that I will be very enjoy studying at that time. Also, I have a big wish.........I hope that God will fulfill my dream........only one time. This year, I won't go back to China though I really miss them. I want to spend more time to study and make everything goes very well......
After EAP program, our teachers will meet new students and we will meet new teachers. In China, we say that teachers like the candle burns out themselves as well as give lights to others.

don't complain anymore

I typed many words and deleted them again and again. I don't know what I want to talk about. no topic is a topic......no reason is a reason. no matter what I want to say, the reality can not be changed. I want to say the sky is gray, but it is still blue. Nobody cares, so I care. No more love, so I love. It is not a big deal. I have read too many love stories. Girls cry for boys. HOWEVER, I still ENJOY this sentence.
A girl said:"I love you." A boy said:"through the salt." A LONG TIME AGO, WHEN I SAW THIS SENTENCE AT THE FIRST TIME, I CRIED WITH NO REASONS. I AM A SO SENSITIVE PERSON. A LITTLE THING CAN BREAK MY HEART AND CHANGE MY MIND. I TRY TO BE MORE BRAVE, BUT SOMETIMES I JUST CHALLENGE MY LIMIT AGAIN AND AGAIN. I KNOW THAT THERE HAS NEVER HAD A LIMIT........
My friends always like to ask my recent life. How to answer them is becoming a big question........i start to doubt their motivations.
I will still envy, wish, hope, admire........Be a stupid girl forever.

My sweet reading week!!!

During this reading week, I went to Ottawa to visit my dear boyfriend. When I saw the real person at that second, my heart was jumpping very fast. A lot of happiness with a little bit sadness. Both of us knew that we only have nine days to enjoy our short trip. He took me to go around and eat many different Chinese food because he knew that I have never cooked delicious food for myself in Calgary. We also worked on my term paper together and searched a lot of information in the library of Carleton University. I saw many old friends who were my old classmates in the high school.
I found that Ottawa is a very nice city. The weather is colder than Calgary, and there is a lot of snow!!! I think that I should go there possibly on summer.... Some people speak French and some people speak English. Most of the time, I speak Chinese.....lol.
Okay, it is the time to talk about my mid-term!!!!!! I did bad on listening exam. I thought that I tried my best to listen, but I still missed many details for the last part....... I always think about there is some problems with my ears. Murray told me that life is not clear...... I really wish I could listen to the last one clearly........
Oh my god...........I am not a smart girl, so I have to spend more time to study for myself.

My big plan for next week!~~~

As everyone knows, mid-term is coming!!!!It comes so fast that I am not get ready. I am sared but I am also excited. First, I am worried about my Writing, Reading, and Listening!!!!I need to prepare a lots on the weekend, so I decide to fight with myself!!I have to passssssss. However,the good news is I am going to Ottawa to visit my dear BF after exams. Even though it is only around 9 days, I would like to spend my money on this ticket. I really miss him a lots......So does him~~~HOHO~~~ This year I only wish he can transfer to U of C successfully. Both of us need to try very very hard, but we believe a same dream. At the same time,I will not/ cannot/ must not/ forget my important term paper.( I believe our teacher is very happy now).
Next week we have some important assignment for Murry......Be honest, I have not started it yet. I have to search sth after this blog........Time is not enough......
Hurry, hurry, Helen. RUN RUN RUN.....

Fever

I got a fever yesterday.....so sad....I hope that I will get better tmr.Next week, Chinese New Year is going to come. I heard about some bad news which is about snow disaster. The snow, the heaviest in decades in many places, has been falling in east, central and south China for more than two weeks. It has caused deaths, accidents, transport problems and livestock and crop destruction. Many people cannot go home during this time, so they have to wait in the train station. Chinese minister WEN JIA BAO visited them and promised that the goverment would do their best to let them go home as soon as possible. When I saw their face, I really can understand their feeling..... I hope this disaster can be disappeared as soon as possible.
Chinese New Year is a traditional and formal festival in China. Every family members have to eat dumplings together during the night. There is also a big TV show in CCTV1which has many famous super stars. I enjoy watching it every year. However, I cannot go home with my dear family..... I really miss my parents and my grandfather. :). However, I will phone them on time.
Happy NEW YEAR to everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

..someone.so.Beautiful.....

I had worked five hours yesterday before I went home, so I just felt too tired...... When I took off the C-train at night, I saw my bus was passing away in front of me and many scared people on the street at night. I decided to go home on foot.... I met a dranker and did not answer what he said to me. It is an lonely night only the moon and stars with me...... Making a little bit money still can let me feel happy.......I don't have any request. I only have a dream which is one of my biggest wishes.........I hate shopping alone, hate having dinner alone, hate every night.......I wanna use a long sentence to describe my situation now, but I cannot. Things can not be changed by myself. something so beautiful, Flowing down like a waterfall.
Today, I met an very old man who talked with me on the Ctrain station. I thought he was a good man at the first time, but I felt very scared now........ We talked a lots and he wanted to teach my English at his home........and asked my cell phone numbers and e-mails.........I was so stupid because I gave him....... I did not know him. Why did I give him??????? I don't know..... He sat very close to me in the C-train, and I felt very uncomfortable.........then, I took off the Train.
So scared those days.......... I should be careful and take care!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Snowing outside

Which seasons do u like the best? In fact, I like spring, summer, fall, and winter because I really enjoy different smell. The smell can record a lot of memory. When I closed my eyes, I used to image different stories which happened a long time ago. Spring can give people energy and also I like many colorful flowers. In summer I love wearing skirt and eating ice cream. In fall my birthday comes soon, and my parents must buy many things for their dear daughter! Winter is my precious time with my boyfriend because we met each other on the airplane to Canada in the winter five years ago. That is why I like all the seasons very much.
Now it is winter time and it is snowing outside. I can see many big snowflakes falling down the ground. I always think about if things have life. Sometimes or all the time I am stupid. There is one more month for the Spring Festival. I will miss a big CCTV show again and my family members....... Give them my best wishes. Life is still continuing. It worths to fight.

What is the best way to learn a foreign language?

I think the best way to learn a foreign language is in a class and outside of class. In the class, teachers can teach students a lot of knowledge which they can't get at home. For example, in the English class students can study how to say and spell words. At the same time, students also can discuss with their classmates about their questions. It is fun to study something with friends. Learning a second language is also need time to absorb, so students still have to practice at home. When they read and write a lots, they will become more and more familiar with English.
If people only study at school, they cannot remember all the stuff. If people only study at home, they cannot get enough knowledge either. By the way, I think a person who always stays at home for studying seems like machines. People need to spend time on life such as by bus and go outside. I remember a sentence in a movie. Life is hard to fight, but it worths to fight.
Learning a second language is hard for me. However, everyone needs to have faith of success. I advise this way to study English just as our situation. We spend eight hours to study English, right?

one more week

There is only one more week for this team. It passed so fast that I feel very excited. Next Friday we will start our final exams which are very scared for me. I have to study harder in this weekend because my boyfriend is going to come on Next Friday!!!!! I guess that I need to preview a lot of work before his arrive. We will have a long long long vacation, so I have to get good marks!!~~ This week I have finished all the homework. We still have one reading assignment, one essay and one presentation. Perhaps we will have three mock quizes I hope.....Now I am studying in the library. There are many classmates around me such as David, Yao, Amin and Behzad. They do not I am writing about them. HOHO~~
Okay, hope everything goes well as before. My Silvester is coming!!!!!!!!!!!I wanna say ~~ Welcome ~~ and also hope he will get high marks!!!! God bless us~~~lovelovelove<3~~~

my favourite singer

Jay Chou grew up in the small town of Linkou, Taiwan. Both his parents were secondary school teachers. He is a very creative person because he has talent on different musical instruments. He is also very handsome guy, and he is very very popular in China. In February 2007, Chou finally directed his first movie Secret. The story he wrote is based loosely on his relationship with a high school girlfriend, with a plot focused on music, love, and family. I have watched it for 10 more times. His songs show a spirit of China. These are very powerful. Everyone enjoys his songs, espeacilly me!!!! I am his big big big fun!!!!!!!!! Let me digress: My bf will come soon~~~~~~HOHO~~~~~ I am so excited. However, I need to study harder in order to have a good holiday with him after final exams! Helen, you can do it.

story

I have read a story which is about a bird. A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground in a large field. While it was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on it. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, it began to realize how warm it was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.
Little story,more knowledge. It tell us that we should look at the matters with different and changing thinking,not the unalterable ones. If we have made some susses,we must not be proud.Because everything has its two sides,bad and good.If it has something happened to ourselves,we should keep calm.

tmr

This week we have three quizzes and a big assignment which are very important as before. I need to prepare them carefully. Until today, I make many new friends who are very lovely in our classroom. Until today, I got some good marks, and I did many great jobs. Until today, I have been here for one more year. Until today, I lost some precious things at the same time I get something. Until today, I didn't remember how many times I had ....and until today, I still believe a dream. But, today, I really hesitate......if the dream is only belong to a dream or it can come true.
The night is so quiet that she feels a flood of panic. She looks at herself in front of a mirror. She hears someone is whispering in the bathroom. While she is crying, a girl is smiling to her. The girl said “please take care of you and please be braver.”
“ridiculous” She answered loudly then turned around……
“If no one loves u, I love u. If no one knows you are still alive, I take care of u. If everyone forgets about u, I remember u.” the girl thought.

How about u reading day <3

I just finished my Writing hw,HOHO. I believe that when you finish you big HW, you wanna have a long break. That is why I am eating noodle now......In fact, I like to eat noodle everyday that is my main food because it is easy to cook. Of course, I also can cook many different kinds of Chinese food. If you don't believe me, maybe I need to show you how delicious it is.....
These four days, I woke up at 11:00 or 12:00a.m. I was a sleepy and lazy girl. By the way, I don't think someone wake up earlier than me!!! I went shopping with Cemile on Friday. I went to a Chinese superstore yesterday. I bought some food for next two weeks. I also talk with my dear bf everyday. He is more and more lazy......you can't image how many hours he need to sleep.....EMMMM.....
I want to go to school... See ya tmr. Tell me sth about u reading day! Have you read THE GIFT ？I am reading this novel which talks about after a man had travelled around, he retured home to find his old lover. He wanna win her back. At the same time, she divorced with her husband and she has a lovely daughter. I hope she will forgive him. By the way, I have a new hair cut!!!!!!!!!!

Melancholy

Today, everything goes well? I don't know. I know that it is a nice day, but I am sad. No special reasons for being unhappy. Many things are arranged with an expect. I have many questions, but I don't have any expect. I don't know if I should turn right or left...I am confused about my future and my life.
I start to miss my childhood which was full of happiness and puerility. Many people had appeared in front of me, but they left as soon as they came. Finally, no one would remember me. Where are they going? Perhaps they are going to meet others. Of course, everyone does. Many people dislike me as many people love me. Many people hate me as many people care me. There are always two sides to every story. I am a novel which you can read and keep or throw away...However, I don't care. (Don't mind. I don't know what I am writing about.)
TO SILVESTER: I LOVE U forever and ever....... There are nothing in my heart but u...... Our love is stopping at this moment...... Our season is coming soon.....

Breath........

Today, we finally finished our presentation. I hope that I really did a good job. In fact, I don't like history at all. This time I learned a lot of knowledge about remarkable person from my dear classmates. Those days, I also feel very slept because I don't wanna sleep at night.Yesterday, I listened to a love redio at night. Someone can phone the DJ, and they will give you some advice. It seems very interesting for me. I just love listen to real stories. In contrast, I can't wake up in the morning. So Sad!!!
By the way,someone always chat on my website........lol, why do not talk with me in the classroom? :p
I am going to sleep for a while. SEE YA!!

weekend

This weekend I did a lot of homework. I believe that everyone has the same experience. Now I am preparing my presentation...hard for me...
Yesterday Ruby and I went shopping together. We talked about our recent lives. Maybe she will go to another university to study. I will miss her...... I also talked with Chen last night. She broke up with her boyfriend. I can feel her sadness, but I cannot help her....... She said that I need his love or someone's care, could I understand her? I think that the happiness and sadness only belong to oneself, no one can understand how happy I was or how painful I suffered. Her love let me think a lots. My dear Chen, I know that you are SUCH a brave girl, so please show me your brave. Do not let him see your weakness, without him you still are a perfect girl.
My BEST WISHES!
I am waiting for a second.......One more month......

After talking.......

I just had a short conversation with Sam, Helen, and Jen in the afternoon. I hopely start to understand what the life is. Everyone has his/her difficulties in their lives, there are some things which we can not control. When we face it, sometimes we are afraid and anxious. However, after this hard period, we will probably get what we want. I hope they will all get what they want. Blesses......
Okay, let talk about sth about Helen. I recently want to lose weight. I tried many times, but I always eat more than before. So sad, right? I wanna thin!!!! Everyday, I finish Hw on time, and read an English article, then listen to some English programs and watch TV. Sometimes I feel very bored and alone. I cook for myself and do some housework. My favourite time is talking with my bf. He taught me many new words and encouraged me to do a better job. We also play games together. I miss my BF a lots... What's the temperture in Ottawa now? He told me he is sick today. I am worried about him.....hope tmr he will get better.

Do u know Maple Story?

Recently, I am palying Maple story which is an internet game. It is very cute and interesting because of pretty backgrounds attract my eyes. I used to play it in China, but this time I play it by North American server. I am very excited......Can u image? In fact, my bf and I play this game together that is why I feel very happy. I have learned many interesting abbreviations from this game. For example, brb means be right back. omg means oh my god. and so on so on.......do u guyz know what this is "<3">Please answer this question.

This weekend I did not go anywhere because I need to have a good rest, then I have energy to do my HW. Thanksgiving Day is tmr. I think I should go to buy some turkey meat for tmr......I searched some funny turkey poems.

Mr. Turkey,Mr. Turkey, better watch out.

Thanksgiving Day is coming.

If you're not careful, you'll end up, In someone's hungry tummy!

Mr. Turkey, run, run, run.

Please run away and hide.

Mr. Turkey, run, run, run.

Don't wait around outside.

Turkey, Turkey
Turkey, Turkey, look at you. Please be careful what you do.Thanksgiving day is almost here.We eat turkey every year.Go and hide out in the woods.We'll eat pizza like we should.

About Me......

Hello, everyone. My name is Helen, and welcome to my space! I know that many people are curious about me because I am always keeping myself quite and alone. However, I said that I liked talking with friends. Actually I have many many many friends through my life. I love them very much. I also want to make friends with you. Okay, let talk sth about me. I have been Calgary for one year. Last term I did not pass this level, so I continue to study here. I did not want to say that, but I have to face it. If the god closed a door to you, at the same time he is openning a window for you. I will study harder than before, and I believe I will get more knowlege. If you have any questins, I'd like to answer you.
I miss my friends very much. They are almost in level3, and some of them study at home. I miss Ruby, Paul, and Ella and Joy and Eric and so on so on....... Bless everyone!
Now, I am going to review my Listening quiz. ~~~Good luck everyone~~~

HAHA~~ happy birthday to my friend. DanDan

DanDan is my best friend in my high school. Now she is studying in Pairs. Of course, she speaks Franch. I hope everything goes well to her. Four days ago is her birthday. I remember that I always buy dolls for her birthday prestent. However, this time I could not send anything. We have a long distance. I just send some messages to her on QQ which is similar as Msn.
I think that there are many friends in people's life, but only one or two is enough for you whole life. I know who is the best on my mind. There is a place for them where near the heart pump.
Ruby is my best friend in Calgary. I love her as much as I love Dandan. I believe our friendship will be for ever.
Whenever you go, whatever you say, I will be here waitting for u. God help me bless Silverster. He needs your help this time. I also need it. Please send him my best wishes. Please let he..............please.
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Welcome to Helen's Heaven

Hello! I am Helen. I think everyone knows me very well. Welcome to ~Helen's Heaven~. Today, I want to write my recent life. I went back to China during the short holiday. I could not use any language to describe my feeling when I saw my parents at Beijing airport. I miss them very much, and I know they are worried about me at any time. My large family mumbers cooked a lot of Chinese food for me. When I had supper, I really wanted to cry. At that time, I felt that my hand was shocking. They love me as much as I do. One day, My cousins and I went to a KTV to sing. I sang a song which one is I always sing. "See me fly, I'm proud to fly up high. Believe me I can fly, I am singing in the sky......" There were too many reasons for why I cried. My best friend and I went shopping together, and I visited her mother at her home. Anyway, we had a wonderful day. I spent lots of time with my parents and friends. Until now, I still recall those momeries on my mind. I still want to be a child who won't grow up. This semester, I will try my best to study. I have to pass this level, then I will go back to China again in August. By the way, through this trip, I know that time can change many things. My grandfather who is my mother's father passed away when I was in Calgay last year. They didn't tell me because they didn't want to affect me. I can understand them, but I really want to see my grandfather at last time......
Time lost cannot be won again. Let us treasure our life.